While Wednesdays are typically my Guilty Pleasure expose, I decided to take a small break for the month of November. Main reason: NaNoWrMo.
(16,000 of that is since NaNoWiMo started, the rest was written the week previous). My overall goal is to reach 85,000-90,000 words, so I have a bit to go 🙂
Generally, I’m a detailed outliner and like to write / edit at the same time. While this is a slower process, I feel more in control. So with NaNoWrMo, I am completely out of my comfort zone.
So far, I’ve been able to slap my inner editor’s hand each time she interferes, though the temptation to jump into research mode or re-analyze the plot is weighting me down. And I remind myself of all the good reasons to continue doing that:
– Yes, when I finish the first draft I can take my time and fill in the gaps with better accuracy
– Yes, I can easily move things around in the plot without worrying about deleting something I’ve spent a lot of time on
– Yes, this process should cut down the number of times I revise the manuscript
BUT, I still panic, which leads to self-doubt. 😦
And that takes me to Dean Koontz’s thoughts on the subject:
“I have more self-doubt than any writer I’ve ever known. That is one reason I revise every page to the point of absurdity! The positive aspect of self-doubt – if you can channel it into useful activity instead of being paralyzed by it – is that by the time you reach the end of a novel, you know precisely why you made every decision in the narrative, the multiple purposes of every metaphor and image. Having been your own hardest critic you still have dreams but not illusions.”
I really like his approach to self-doubt, and plan to embrace it.
I will leave you with a blog from Claire Legrand who wrote and illustrated a blog that I relate to… plus it always makes me giggle. Enjoy.
What about you? How do you deal with self-doubt?